Ahh hi guys!
I'm back, as the title says, heheh!
Things are...okay? I guess, not fantastic but I mean it could be worse
I've done all my exams now which is good, and finally started planning the japan gap year which is so exciting!
I've started looking at universities, still can't work out whether to do Japanese or Art though, ah decisions, decisions
I've felt rather positive this year and better about myself, though recent situations have given me a set back. You see I'm not really an angry person, but it's not until recently that I got so angry I was hitting things and getting a racing heart making me have restless nights, so not a good sign really. And I don't want to turn into a bitchy person.
It's hard because I'm in a very awkward situation, I've had to be forced to realise that something has to be done, but if I do act there will be many consequences and so I just can't do what I want to do, and that's eating away at me, you know?
And every time I think I've got a solution to it, something else comes to light, or something else happens to add to my anger.
I want to make art to help with it, but I never know where to start when people make pictures based on emotion.
*sigh* It's all very frustrating and horrid and I just want to let everything go
(easy there elsa) but I just physically can't, I just need a distraction, and maybe the summer, once I get away from everyone I can finally get better,
but ugh, I dunno, sorry guys On a cheery note
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Bye guys, hope you've all been good!